Hollow

25 - cis - she/her/hers or they/them/theirs
Queer, ace, survivor.

I suffer from PTSD, depression and anxiety, as well as several bone diseases that cause me chronic pain and disfigurement.
I am a survivor of abusive relationships and rape.

This whole blog has a trigger warning as I write about my experiences attempting to recover from what I can and live with what I can't.

ofools:

lumpenspaceproletariat:

dearnonacepeople:

knight-of-antioch:

If you’re Christian I hope you don’t believe asexuality exists because you are implying you and/or others are immune from sinful lust, which is applying divine properties to humans and therefore defying crucial theological principles.

It’s just in asexuals are actually have divine properties 

lmao oh my goodness

finally the recognition i deserve, the godly kind

(Source: )

Ignore me for the next like, day.
I forgot my meds so I’m paranoid and freaking out at everything and I think all these passive agressive or sarcastic text posts are actually about me and all my friends hate me.

So if you get a message from me freaking out that’s why. It’s me. It’s all on my end. I know it’s happening and why it’s happening but I can’t make it stop and when I’m freaking out it feels real and then I feel really stupid. So just ignore me.

herochan:

Ryan Reynolds as Deadpool… in HD

If we add the word “leaked” to this will it make it more exciting? If “leaked” means “uploaded by the animation studio” then this is even more “leaked” than when “leaked” meant “shown to 1000’s of people at Comic-Con”. 

cannon-fannon is this what you were looking for?

(via im-just-a-girl-who-likes-comedy)

evil-phil-coulson:

savingsergeantbarnes:

butiknevvhim:

please love yourself as much as anthony mackie loves the falcon

 (via)

And know just like the Black Widow does that another’s poor opinion of you is irrelevant to your value as a person and can only end in their downfall, while you stride gloriously onward.

(via im-just-a-girl-who-likes-comedy)

sapphicdalliances:

the world is incredible. there are girls in this world, and there are also dogs. you can put melted cheese on any type of potato.  sometimes flowers grow even when nobody is there to water them. right now on this same planet where we live there are people who are in love with each other kissing each other on the nose. emotions and colours are both things that exist. everything is so great

(via thatcuriouskat)

“Men’s average ideal weight is up 14 pounds since Gallup first measured it in 1990 and their average actual weight is up 16 pounds. Women’s average ideal weight is up 11 pounds since 1990, and their average actual weight is up 14 pounds. These trends suggest that as Americans have grown heavier overall, their concept of what their ideal weight is has been adjusted upward as well. These results are based on Gallup’s annual Health and Healthcare survey, conducted Nov. 15-18. Gallup has asked Americans how much they weigh yearly since 2001, as well as in 1990 and 1999.”

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Americans Continue to Adjust Their Ideal Weight Upward (Gallup)

An average gain of 14 lbs among women and 16 lbs among men, since 1990. 14 lbs. 14 FUCKING LBS. THIS is the fucking obesity epidemic? THIS what I’m getting oppressed over?

A weight gain that can likely nearly be entirely accounted for by an aging population and smoking cessation?

THIS YOUR OBESITY EPIDEMIC. You fucking liars. You fucking panic-mongers. You fucking small-minded shitwads who desperately needed someone to feel automatically better than, through no actual effort on your part, by virtue of no actual ADDED VIRTUE on your part. 

Fuck you fucking healthists who’ve been pushing this fat panic bullshit ever since the lowering of BMI thresholds. Fuck you in the government for getting rich off panic-mongering and appropriating funds for giant new bureaucracies whose stated goal is to experiment on an entire generation of children. Fuck you employers for your ‘employee wellness programs’ that cause financial hardship to fat people who are penalized for having the wrong BMI. Fuck you insurance companies for profiting off the panic by charging fat people more for their policies. Fuck you stupid fucking economists who do assumption-laced back-of-the-envelope calculations that suggest fat people are responsible for global warming. Fuck you private and public foundations for issuing giant grants to anyone who does a study that finds in the negative for ‘the obese,’ and fuck you researchers who take that money.

The ‘obesity epidemic’ isn’t real, folks. It isn’t real. It isn’t fucking real. Welcome to the Theatre of Panic, Hate, and Other Shameful Social Tendencies. 

(via thisisthinprivilege)

given that dress sizes were codified during the great depression, all body standards are doing is finally resetting to //actual normal// instead of some idealized waif aesthetic based on people who were literally starving.

(via ultralaser)

DRESS SIZES WERE CODIFIED DURING THE GREAT DEPRESSION.

Read that again.

DRESS SIZES WERE CODIFIED DURING THE GREAT DEPRESSION.

This not only means that they were based off an aesthetic of starving people, but we are talking about a baseline set 84 years ago.

So not only is it based off starving bodies, but it’s guaranteed to be based off starving white bodies.
And ‘white’ in the 30s meant  White Anglo Saxons.  
So Spanish, Greek, and even Western European people were excluded from this ‘ideal class’ along with everyone else on the planet. 

So our dress sizings were codified using not only starving bodies during the depression, but ONLY starving Anglo Saxon bodies. 

(via dykevibes)

gehayi:

queenofeden:

perplexingly:

Daughter of a gun (ノ´ヮ´)ノ*:・゚✧ No idea if such a thing existed but surely there had to be girls born on board in the Age of Sail?

*puts on obnoxious historian hat*
*clears throat*
there were actually tons of women and girls on board ships during the age of sail and it’s really cool history that no one!!! ever!!! talks about!!! 
like captains of merchant ships used to bring their wives and children on board for long voyages all the time (and of course there were plenty of well known female pirate ship captains, and women cross-dressing as men, and prostitutes that more people seem to know of)
there’s actually a really amazing story of one woman, Mary Ann Patten who was the wife of the captain of this ship called Neptune’s Car. Captain Patten decided that he wanted her onboard with him and she was super about this and learned all about navigation and sailing and everything. so this one voyage they’re going around the tip of south america when her husband gets sick and is bed ridden with a fever right as the ship sails into one of the worst storms any of the crew had ever seen and it looks like they might lose the ship or have to stop
so you know who takes over??? the first mate??? 
no.
MARY
she took over the whole crew and sailed that ship through freezing water and pack ice and had it coasting smoothly into the san francisco harbour like it was nothing. and she did this all at age 19. while pregnant.
at one point the first mate tried to get the crew to mutiny against her but they all rallied with her and told him to shut the heck up because she obv knew what she was doing.
there’s a great book about women in the age of sail called ‘female tars’ by suzanne stark that i cannot recommend enough and has way more amazing stories and insights about the myriad roles women and girls played aboard ship during that time period.
(sorry i totally didn’t mean to hijack your post i love all of your art and this is gorgeous i just got over excited sorry sorry sorry)

We need links!
Female Tars: Women Aboard Ship in the Age of Sail by Suzanne Stark
Hen Frigates: Passion and Peril, Nineteenth-Century Women at Sea by Joan Druett
Hen Frigates: Wives of Merchant Captains Under Sail by Joan Druett
Iron Men, Wooden Women: Gender and Seafaring in the Atlantic World, 1700-1920 edited by Margaret S. Creighton and Lisa Norling
Petticoat Whalers: Whaling Wives at Sea, 1820-1920 by Joan Druett
Sea Queens: Women Pirates Around the World by Jane Yolen
Seafaring Women: Pirate Queens, Female Stowaways and Sailors’ Wives by David Cordingly
The Captain’s Best Mate: The Journal of Mary Chipman Lawrence on the Whaler Addison, 1856-1860 by Mary Chipman Lawrence
Women Sailors and Sailors’ Women: An Untold Maritime History by David Cordingly

darkkittyrose relevant to our conversations about badass lady pirates!

gehayi:

queenofeden:

perplexingly:

Daughter of a gun (ノ´ヮ´)ノ*:・゚✧ No idea if such a thing existed but surely there had to be girls born on board in the Age of Sail?

*puts on obnoxious historian hat*

*clears throat*

there were actually tons of women and girls on board ships during the age of sail and it’s really cool history that no one!!! ever!!! talks about!!! 

like captains of merchant ships used to bring their wives and children on board for long voyages all the time (and of course there were plenty of well known female pirate ship captains, and women cross-dressing as men, and prostitutes that more people seem to know of)

there’s actually a really amazing story of one woman, Mary Ann Patten who was the wife of the captain of this ship called Neptune’s Car. Captain Patten decided that he wanted her onboard with him and she was super about this and learned all about navigation and sailing and everything. so this one voyage they’re going around the tip of south america when her husband gets sick and is bed ridden with a fever right as the ship sails into one of the worst storms any of the crew had ever seen and it looks like they might lose the ship or have to stop

so you know who takes over??? the first mate??? 

no.

MARY

she took over the whole crew and sailed that ship through freezing water and pack ice and had it coasting smoothly into the san francisco harbour like it was nothing. and she did this all at age 19. while pregnant.

at one point the first mate tried to get the crew to mutiny against her but they all rallied with her and told him to shut the heck up because she obv knew what she was doing.

there’s a great book about women in the age of sail called ‘female tars’ by suzanne stark that i cannot recommend enough and has way more amazing stories and insights about the myriad roles women and girls played aboard ship during that time period.

(sorry i totally didn’t mean to hijack your post i love all of your art and this is gorgeous i just got over excited sorry sorry sorry)

We need links!

Female Tars: Women Aboard Ship in the Age of Sail by Suzanne Stark

Hen Frigates: Passion and Peril, Nineteenth-Century Women at Sea by Joan Druett

Hen Frigates: Wives of Merchant Captains Under Sail by Joan Druett

Iron Men, Wooden Women: Gender and Seafaring in the Atlantic World, 1700-1920 edited by Margaret S. Creighton and Lisa Norling

Petticoat Whalers: Whaling Wives at Sea, 1820-1920 by Joan Druett

Sea Queens: Women Pirates Around the World by Jane Yolen

Seafaring Women: Pirate Queens, Female Stowaways and Sailors’ Wives by David Cordingly

The Captain’s Best Mate: The Journal of Mary Chipman Lawrence on the Whaler Addison, 1856-1860 by Mary Chipman Lawrence

Women Sailors and Sailors’ Women: An Untold Maritime History by David Cordingly

darkkittyrose relevant to our conversations about badass lady pirates!

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neverlonelyinsolitude said: Once you get this message, you must list five random facts about yourself and then pass it on to ten of your favourite followers :)

Eeep! Ok, facts about me! I’m make these lighthearted because you already know the dark stuff

  1. My hair grows faster than anyone else I know. I had my head shaved two years ago and now it’s at my bra clasp. (I’m cutting it all off today again though, because I’m bored.)

  2. I’ve broken one of my toes so many times it no longer has a bone in it, and wobbles around like a stinky earlobe.

  3. I am friends with all the cats in my street. It took me a year but I have finally convinced all of them to trust me. I also make my clients bring their dogs in to work so I can pat them.

  4. I used to roleplay on the neopets forums when I was 12. I had a charachter named somethingsomething Silverfeather who wore a cloak of *wait for it* silver feathers, and had a pet owl. I used to run egg adoption RPs and get really upset when people didn’t look after their imaginary pets that I had made for them.

  5. I had no friends until I was 13. Instead while I was growing up I had a flock of wild lorikeets (small social parrots) that I used to hand feed in the back yard every afternoon and a family of magpies that were my friends and I learnt how to mimic their bird calls so it felt like we talked to each other.
    I named every one and they all had stories.

In conclusion, I am a giant nerd and I don’t know how I’ve managed to convince people I am a cool person who should tattoo them. 

Because I’m too lazy to send asks; I tag smilingshroud darkkittyrose morgrath cannon-fannon fucknojasonbiggs swim-for-brighter-times l-heure-du-the autie-baeddel-cat leighalanna marisolinspades

jon-snow:

god bless sdcc

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http://hollowedskin.tumblr.com/post/93165875943/hollowedskin-cool-so-i-just-lay-down-to-bed-at

violenceandvitriol:

hollowedskin:

Cool, so I just lay down to bed at 3am and my cat comes in, snuggles up and pees on me and himself.

Good fun. Now my partner is pissed off because we had no sheets clean because the ones I thought were clean had bat shit on them.

I have no idea why Bus just peed on us…

Hey sweetie, I’m a vet nursing assistant and I can tell you that no responsible vet will anaesthetise any animal if they think breathing would be a problem. We monitor our patients vary carefully and there are different anaesthetic agents and sedatives that can be used in compromised animals.

If your kitty does have a problem with his urinary system the first thing we would normally do - as long as he’s not completely blocked, which it sounds like he isn’t - is run a quick in-house test and look at a sediment sample to determine the presence of anything unusual. Sometimes just a special diet is enough to dissolve some crystals, but there are some types of crystal that need surgical removal.

Chances are it’s a stress response though. In the UK we have over-the-counter products to help alleviate anxiety. One is Feliway and is pheromone based, and the other is Zylkene and contains milk proteins.

You can always call your vet for advice and they’ll tell you if they think he needs to be seen. If you start seeing unproductive straining or blood in his urine then please do schedule a check up.

Hey thanks heaps, that’s a huge relief. I’d been putting off getting him desexed because I’m worried about how he will take being put to sleep. (he has to stay inside anyway because he’s mostly blind)

He wheezes a lot and stops breathing when he’s sleeping. I think his giant cheeks get in his way. (he has a very chubby squishy face like Maru, but he’s not overweight) He really likes resting his head on stuff when he sleeps and doesn’t seem to do it as bad when he props one jowl on a pillow so we have lots of stuff for him to sleep on and in where he can rest his head up. When he lays down flat he has lots of trouble and it’s really scary listening to him wheeze and squeak. 

He’s been good today, my other boy has had stop-ups in the past because of urine crystals, but we were able to get rid of them and manage it with the special food they hate from the vet. Bus is on it too because otherwise Dorian will eat the other cats food and get crystals again.

I’ve been watching him today and he isn’t cleaning his bits all the time like Dorian does if he has problems, or trying to pee anywhere else. He’s just snuggled up using my feet as pillows. 
Since we got him a year ago he always does his weird little pee ritual where he has to pee at least twice in both litter trays and inspect it thoroughly, but he hasn’t been going any more often or any more times than normal.

But i’m going to keep watching him. I didn’t notice when my other boy got sick a few years ago because I thought he was being naughty instead of trying to tell me he wasnt feeling well and I almost lost him. 

<3 thanks so much. I’ll check out the anxiety stuff too. if Dorian is going through one of his crazy periods, would it calm him down? He’s a 4yo desexed boy, he’s a bush feral so he gets full on sometimes. not like agressive, he just gets really intense with them and won’t leave them alone and plays too rough. 

I know it seems like I’m a hypochondriac when it comes to them, Bus is this and Dorian is this, but they’re all rescues that were too hard to find normal homes for.